2005-01-03 - 11:01 a.m.
I have finally come to accept the fact that I am not the kind of person who will be satisfied doing one thing his entire life. This will come as no great shock to those who know me well - in fact, most of them have been telling me this for years. Well, they were right. I think I am going to be one of those people who does something for a few years, then moves onto something completely different for a few more, etc, etc. I kind of like the idea...it has been working well so far, so now I'm going to role with it. This year's resolution is to figure out what the next phase of my life will be.
It has become painfully obvious that this next phase will not likely involve NASA. I have been fighting the idea of leaving for a variety of reasons, not the least of which was the amount of pain many people went through to get me here. But in the end, what good do I do if I don't want to be here? So I'm going to find another job, and I'm going to start on my next project...
I WANT TO BE DR. SAADAH!!!
I want a PhD...in history, or political science, or one of a hundred other things, but I want one. I want to be the world's expert on something. I want to dig so deeply into a subject that I surpass all existing knowledge on it and create new ground. Right now, I want to write a thesis on the history of religion and its effects on the evolution of the worlds ideologies. Ask me again tomorrow, and it will likely be something completely different.
Now, my ideal life as of 11am today would be to find a job which I would enjoy and which would allow me to take a class or two a semester so that in ten or twelve years, I would have my doctorate. The search begins today...wish me luck!
